This one came to me today, and it is about me and what happens to me everyday. So don't be all like 'That never really happend, you don't act like that. It's just a character.' Well this time, that 'character' is me. So nah!
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Schizophrenic
The noise,
The yelling,
The arguing,
The pain.
The bad memories I tried to hide away,
They bring them back,
Just to haunt me,
To hurt me more.
They won’t go away,
Won’t leave me alone,
They try to make me cry,
Sometimes they succeed,
At the worst of times.
They taunt me,
They bully me,
They make me think of really bad things.
There’s too many of them,
I can’t make them stop,
It’s too hard to do.
Some of them are nice,
But once I let my guard down,
Once I’m vulnerable,
They all attack me at once,
Hurting me with bad memories.
They tell me things I don’t like,
Things that I don’t want to hear,
Things that lead me to thoughts of suicide.
I never thought that I would think like that,
I never thought that words could hurt me so much,
Especially when those words come from myself.
I hate it,
They won’t stop,
They won’t go away,
No matter what I do.
Some of those voices are my own characters,
In stories of mine,
But I never made them like this,
I don’t want this pain,
I don’t want to hurt,
I don’t want to cry,
I don’t want to sleep and fear that my bad memoires will haunt me.
I want to be normal,
I want to be alone,
Without these voices,
Without the pain.
I don’t want to be schizophrenic anymore,
I don’t want to be crazy,
I don’t want to talk to myself anymore,
At least not like this,
Not with them.
I want to be free!
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I know this one is very dark, but that's how my life is. That is my thoughts and feelings. So yeah...Read and Comment please.