It was the day that time stood still,
for me...the longest night of my life.
Yet you all said to me not to worry,
For it was merely a wee bit o' strife.
And though I cannot describe the pain,
in my physical, and emotional heart.
Know only that my one truest fear,
Was that that night our friendship would part.***
I wrote that Thursday night while being so truly terrified to sleep. I was so afraid I would never wake if I did close my eyes. It's to all of you, my thoughts at that moment, my fears, and my worries, about the future...and the things I would never be able to say and do.
I guess what I'll do now, is give you a bit of a run down on what's wrong, and why I was rushed into cardiac surgery the way I was. It's simple really, kind of anyway. On Aug the 7th, my heart rate was 72bpm. And by Aug the 14th A.M. ...it was only 52bpm, and P.M. ...45bpm

. My heart was starving for oxygen, and as such, I would randomly pass out or collapse no matter if I was walking, or sitting. Or...sleeping as well. It's getting tired so they say. So, they prepped me for what they thought was going to be a bypass procedure. Starting with the camera insertion into my heart and x-rays from the inside. I was awake for that part, and let me tell you...it's way cool to see your own heart beat in your own chest...from the inside no less <_<
ANYWAY...as they were doing that, I was then sedated for the next part...fixing what was wrong, and or opening me up via the chest.
...that never happened. My heart...is perfectly normal, and as healthy as can be. Weird huh?
Yup...even weirder, is that there is still an issue with my heart starving for O2, but it is no longer a cardiovascular problem, it's coming from elsewhere, and that they will be looking into starting next week. I just have to take it easy for a bit, rest lots, and not over exert myself. /sigh...that's the downside.
The upside...my heart can handle the load for now ^^
God-speed to my Doctors.
And once again my friends...thank you for your thoughts, and well wishes and prayers. You have no idea how much that means to me